You may be having ambivalent feelings toward your pit of addiction. It may not always look like a pit, and perhaps it hasn’t always seemed like a pit to you. Instead, it was a haven where pain couldn’t touch you. You thought that by going into this secret place you could escape your pain. You know now that your pain was always there; you brought it with you.
As you think about cleaning out your pit and leaving behind your food addiction, be sure to look into all the nooks and crannies. Watch out for any co-addictions that may be hiding there. You may even be shielding one, holding it in reserve as a substitute for your eating disorder or disordered eating pattern.
Don’t despair if you fall back into the hole during your journey. As you become a child again, reliving difficult memories, you may even be surprised to see your pit transform itself. It may suddenly appear to be, once again, the wonderful place of escape it was then.
The temptation will be great to fall back into your pit as the child you were then. But you must climb out of it as the adult you are now. Work at trying to stay away from the edge as much as you can. When you fall back in, work at getting out of it again as fast as you can.
We believe our dreams are what keep us going, and giving up on dreams can be very difficult. But an eating disorder or disordered eating is not a dream; it is a delusion. Though powerful, the addiction is not beyond our ability to overcome. The addiction will deceive us into thinking it is more powerful than anything we can do.
It is important to remind yourself that you have the power of choice. The lie of an addiction is that there is no choice. As you meet the challenges you face each day, remind yourself, I cannot always dictate what happens to me, but I can choose how to respond. Today, I choose life free from addiction.
We are not powerless to overcome an addiction when we utilize the power of faith. Hebrews 11:1 says, “Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” The Bible tells us that God is more powerful than our addiction when it says, in Luke 1:37, “Nothing is impossible with God.” Faith in this promise tells us that God is able to empower us to overcome the bondage of an addiction. Our eyes may not see it, but faith asks our hearts to believe it.
Lord, I believe that in you there is victory over my addiction. Increase my faith and strengthen me in times of fear and doubt. Lead me on a path where my faith grows each day.
Authored by Dr. Gregory Jantz, founder of The Center • A Place of HOPE and author of 35 books. Pioneering whole-person care nearly 30 years ago, Dr. Jantz has dedicated his life’s work to creating possibilities for others, and helping people change their lives for good. The Center • A Place of HOPE, located on the Puget Sound in Edmonds, Washington, creates individualized programs to treat behavioral and mental health issues, including eating disorders, addiction, depression, anxiety and others.